I know I haven’t been online much over the last week or so. I couldn’t. I am quitting smoking, this time for good. Last week was like being a kid with ADD, a lady with PMS and a mature woman with menopause, all rolled up into one person, at one time. Yes all members of my family are still alive, if not a little bruised. ( Not literally )

But sitting at the computer for more than 15 minutes wasn’t possible. Let alone trying to read anyone’s posts, or comment. My days are getting better, little by little. And I’m capable of the occasional coherent thought, without emotional outbursts. I haven’t felt that psychotic since the last time I attempted to quit. For some reason this time was far worse. I’m thinking due to the fact that I’m determined to get off these cancer sticks once and for all. Since I knew this, mourning the loss of my addiction has been traumatic on a few different levels. But I’m not going to obsess over the loss this week. But focus on the gain.

I do know I can’t go through another week like last week, again. It has to stick this time. This week’s goal is to concentrate on all the wonderful side effects of quitting.
1. I can breathe better.
2. I won’t smell like an ash tray.
3. More energy.
4. More time to do things I enjoy.
5. More money to add to the budget. (Eventually; as the patches and nicotine gum, don’t come cheap!)

Getting off of them will make increasing exercise time and intensity easier.  I’ll be coming back to this post to reread the benefits often this week. And as the nagging withdrawls let up, reading more of my favorite blogs will be what it should be. Enjoyable. Trust me when I say, that you really didn’t want me commenting last week. Besides the fact that it probably would not have been coherent, my irritability threshold was off the charts. (In a bad way)

Unfortunately so was my asthma. I didn’t quit because I wanted to this time, but because I couldn’t smoke without stealing the little air I was getting from my lungs. It has to stick this time, and it will.

Hope everyone’s Monday is going well.

Love,

3T